I Still Go On…

I read a beautiful quote on depression today. It goes like this:
“If you are chronically down, it is a lifelong fight to keep from sinking ”
Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation

For those of us who deal with depression we have all probably heard the question, “What is wrong?” or, “Oh you’ll be okay.” Or some of the other 1000+ well meaning lines that are told or asked us.

The truth is most times we don’t know what is wrong. There is no explanation as to why you feel like all the colours in your life were getting washed away to leave a gray picture behind. That you just had the happiest day of your life, but now you are feeling like you are in the deepest, darkest hole of hopelessness.

People do think though that just because you are depressed means that those happy moments didn’t mean as much. That is the farthest from the truth. They are everything. They are that light that shines, tiny at first but then growing as you focus and they guide you back. We need those happy, bright light filled moments to fight the dark that always is around.

It’s not easy this fight. It’s never ending, constant, and some days you lose and some days you win. What needs to be understood is that we fight. Everyday that we are alive, we fight. The strength that takes, the amount of effort, the amount of uphill going to sometimes only slide all the way back down, the courage, the bravery, that is not as recognised as it should be.

In spite of all the misunderstanding, all the difficulty, the judgement, all the well meaning comments and questions I still go on. As do more illions who fight this unseen illness that plagues us. We still go on. And we will continue our fight, for we are worth fighting for.


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