Here we are at the top of the mountain that has been the year 2016. What a climb it has been! I have been challenged, tested and emotionally wrecked this year. But guess what I have endured. I had grown and I can still stand tall albeit a bit bruised and scarred. But that is nothing new in my life.
I started out with the hardships but let’s add the good now. I have found love. I have found strength. I travelled to two new places (UK and India) and I met people I never thought I would. I learnt that even in the midst of a storm, there is one spot of calm you are given to really get things together. God knows you need it and He provides.
Speaking of God, we grew apart. And if anybody wants to argue God does not exist try knowing Him and then not knowing Him. Trust me you miss Him! You feel the emptiness. Trust me on that.
On the point of love…I love my best friend. A man who is the complete opposite of me. Who is the calm to my storm, the steady to my panic, the patience to my impatience, the soothing to my fears, the cool to my hot temper, the assurance to my doubts and the possessor of the biggest, most loving heart! I don’t admit it enough but he is a blessing in my life. Again God knows what He is doing. Even when I don’t. Though I will admit I was sure on him from the start.
On work matters. I got to travel as a result of my job. As I mentioned previously, to the UK and India. I didn’t have a lot of fun in either trip. I am not good with travelling alone. But I learnt a lot. And sometimes lessons are not fun. Well are they ever?
Family wise, me and my sisters are all grown up now…and leading different lives. With all four of us on different paths it is difficult to keep together. And I am afraid we will grow apart. This is part of life though. I have to trust that the bond we share, which is a lifetime worth of experiences, memories, emotions is strong enough to let us go down different paths but still be the same ‘us’. It is strong enough.
Studies wise I failed. And failed. And failed again. I have lost confidence in my abilities and my will to complete this is diminished. I refuse to give up though. No great story was ever told on anyone who gave up right?!
Health, exercise wise I need help and a change. I am as fit as a broken fiddle! I am always on my arse and hardly moving about, what with a desk job and weird working hours. No excuse though!
All in all 2016 has been a happy year but trying too. And here I stand at the summit ready to plunge into the dark abyss that is 2017 and start a new climb all over again. Wish you a safe journey ahead. And I pray you wish me the same. Raise a glass this New Year’s Eve to another chapter in the great epic that is life!