Change is inevitable. We all know this. We all tell ourselves this. We all expect it. Yet when it shows up we are left feeling anxious and that one feeling carries a host of others. Anger, sadness, resentment, panic; these are all contained in the anxiety.
Truth of the matter is, the feelings are all justified, change is scary. It is normal to feel what we feel. Normal to want to build up walls and hide. Another truth is that, though walls protect you, they also keep you in. There is not much you can see or do from inside.
I am learning that living, truly living leaves you open to a lot of uncertainty and possible sadness and heartbreak. However, there is endless joy, beauty and new things to be discovered and experienced.
I have lived the majority of my life, building walls, hiding and running away at any sign of possible hurt occurring. For the first time in my life in a very long time I have had the good fortune to meet someone who not only just tells me all the good things that are there in life but someone who pushes and challenges me gently to step out and see them with my own eyes. That is the blessing we all seek at the end of the day…another human being who truly understands you but one who also helps you grow.
This year has therefore been most memorable for the friend I made. A friend I hope to have for the rest of my life.